learning to lean


off balance.  that’s the first thing I think of when I hear the word “leaning”.  I picture some building in my mind that actually looks nothing like the actual “leaning tower of pisa”.  And, well, I think of myself because if you know me at all you know I’m not the most graceful…I tend to get off balance quite easily.  Feel free to ask my friend Natalie how many times I have fallen going UP her stairs.  Yes.  Seriously.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:5

I really think it was a verse in my first ever round of Bible Drills in the 3rd grade.  I remember thinking it was a parent verse.  Like something a parent would pray for a child…because isn’t that what children do?

Over the years I’ve seen that this verse is definitely for children…and I am a child so it applies.  Regardless of how old I am on my birthday, I still think that I know best about certain things.  Oh how grateful I am that the Lord perseveres.  He doesn’t give up on me no matter how hard headed or near sighted I can be.

When I do get off balance – emotionally/spiritually/physically…I like to be able to lean into something/someone though.  I like explanations – reasoning for whatever is going on…or simply the knowledge that I won’t fall down – something is going to hold me up.

It seems so smart at first to trust myself.  Go with “my gut”.  Follow my heart.  Ha.  It’s truly almost comical if it wasn’t so destructive.  The Word says that the heart is deceitful above all things. And well – it’s pretty difficult to lean against yourself isn’t it?  I mean have you tried it?  Yep…you’re bound to fall.  It’s physically impossible.

I absolutely love when the Lord speaks new things through words I’ve read numerous times.  He’s telling us not to lean on our own understanding because it’s NOT WORTH LEANING AGAINST.  It can NOT HOLD US UP.

But.  BUT. When we lean into Him.  Into His truths.  Into His wisdom.  Into the Biblical counsel of friends who are intimate with Him – whom He sends to equip/encourage/reprove/rebuke/exhort us.  Then our paths will be straight.  Even if we are leaning…feeling a bit off balance and sideways…His truth will hold us up.  He will keep us exactly where we need to be.

Yes, I pray daily that my girls and the my friends’ kiddos will learn to lean.  Lean on Him.  But also…I’m intentionally praying that I will do the same.  To live by example – to allow my babies to see me leaning…to honestly talk with them when I fall about why I did.  I don’t want to dismiss it.  I don’t want to brush it under the rug and shrug things off.

Let’s open up – let’s share with our children – with our friends -with our family about when we are feeling off balance.  Don’t be afraid to reach out to the One who will support us.  We are explicitly told to not do this on our own.  We must trust Him.  We must learn to lean.

For His Glory,

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child of the One True God, wife to the love of my life, mom of 2 gorgeous gals, and humbled to walk daily in His incredible grace
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