(Clearly, this one sat in the “draft” folder for a few days!)
January is more than half over – already.
The past few years I feel like the Lord has given me a word to focus on for the upcoming year. I thought back in December I knew what the word was going to be but over the past couple of weeks I have felt led in a different direction.
This week though, He’s confirmed what my “word of the year” will be – OBEDIENCE – (sidenote – did yall know this was a “thing”? seriously! I’ve seen so much about it lately in the blog world…but I am doing it solely because I want to share with you what the Lord is doing in my life!)
Obedience is open ended. Obedience isn’t confined to one set of rules or a particular situation. Obedience is for the long haul. It’s a weaving in and out of every day without knowing what’s coming next or perhaps what is even occurring in the here and now. Obedience may ask questions but not to determine if or not to obey because underneath is a solid foundation of faith & trust.
For one of the first times in my life, I feel like it’s scary to write out the word obedience – to know that it’s something He specifically wants to teach me about this year. I think because I truly have no answers for 98% of the questions that are floating in my head and tugging at my heart. Most of my life I’ve had some type of plan – options A or B, steps to follow, answers to “so what’s going on?” – and now I don’t. Funny that the truth is I’ve never been in control of those answers anyway. It’s always been in His hands just as it is now. Perhaps I was a bit too dependent on myself and my answers.
To obey is better than to sacrifice – that’s what His word tells us in 1 Samuel. I have no idea what that looks like in my life this year. I don’t know what that looks like in regards to my health. I am anxious to know what it looks like in regards to serving overseas. I wonder how it will affect my day to day. Lots of unknowns…but praise His sweet holy name – He knows.
I am known.
He knows my desire to be healthy. He knows that my heart beats fast when I talk about Madagascar. He knows that I want to drive again. He knows that…He. knows.
my job? my job is not to know. it’s…
to listen, to follow, to sit still, to act, to serve, to forgive, to discipline, to have joy, to live abundantly, to show grace, to demonstrate mercy, to make disciples, to share His story
or more simply put?